When you were little you were taught to say your pray before going to bed. Actually there were two things you couldn’t skip before bedtime: brushing your theeth and saying the pray. Coming from different backgrounds our pray are different, but mine was one already customized, mourned in churches by old fellows, hardly to understand it. Growing up my days became too full and my nights to tired to allow another few minutes for my pray. I didn’t even have the time to say thanks silently, before closing my eyes. And that’s the moment when you grow bitter, because you think everything which comes to you you deserve it, without acknowledging you were given everything, you were celebrated everyday by someone who’s giving you gifts like everyday is your birthday.
Days passed, and my pray were taking place only one I wished something so badly, but it wasn’t me the one who could decide if I’m gonna have it or not. So I became an opportunistic in this relationship, seeking help through my prays but showing no appreciation in exchange. This selfish way still exists in all of us, even though we admit it or not. And when you ask for something which refuse to happen, you behave like a child, becoming stubborn, angry, crying or shouting. And when you reach this stage, like a patient who’s treatment doesn’t show any improvement, you start to take your medication in the morning, after you wake up. You hope it will work to keep you alive another day, hoping for the best long term results.
I’ve reached this stage, and now I’m on new treatment plan which hopefully is gonna show better results.
With credits to Max Ehrmann, I discovered Desiderata a few years ago and I felt it like my customized pray, the one I chose it to guide my way of being, describing best what I want to achieve day by day, from the moment I wake up until I close my heavy eyes.
Now tell me what is your pray so I can tell you who you are.
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.